There's A New Term For QT...

A few weeks ago I was $1 short at Aldi's and was about to remove an item and just before I did the cashier said: no hold on I have a man that comes in and refills this card with $50 to use when someone needs it. 

Oh my Lord, did I need it! I couldn't help but cry when she came around the register to give me a hug as I thanked her from the bottom of my heart. The two ladies behind me began to cry as well...

The next time I went to Aldi's I took her a beautiful card and put a beautiful necklace inside. When I went to the store today I looked for her and didn't see her. I went to self-checkout and then I heard her kind voice speaking to one of her customers - she said she just found out she's pregnant and I actually cried (tears start falling). 

I finished checking out and stopped at her register. I asked if she got my card. She said I thought it was you! She stepped from behind her register, showed me she was wearing the necklace I put in there ..she was wearing the NECKLACE! And she thanked me and gave me a hug! 

Aldi's has a gem in her and I wish I could be on an episode of Undercover Boss - in other words I wish I could bless her, change her life...but perhaps I did, cause she sure changed mine. #thekindnessofstrangers 

I have been giving my love to strangers that seem to need it and appreciate it and you know what!? It feels good! My people got to used to me doing what I do and didn't appreciate the effort it takes - the mindfulness, the sacrifice of time and treasure to show #realovenoshade I need my cup filled up and it is happening!!!!! But not from the people I thought I would get it. 

I hope we learn to appreciate and reciprocate good people in our lives...I know I do.  

I have removed myself from most nouns I'd become acustomed to, perhaps I just didn't know any better and accepted the identification as described. What is she talking about now? Well, a noun can be a person, a place or a thing. Does that make more sense? There are a lot of people, a lot of places and a lot of things that I can no longer accept as described...I can't act comfortable in places that make my skin crawl, I can't accept words that have no action/no receipts and truth - where's the proof!?

I thought I had a lot of friends. I am popular! Maybe Momma was right, do they look at me as the class clown? Just a show to watch and see just how much I can handle...how much I can take and how, oh how will she FIGURE THIS OUT!? 

If you are still reading and the thought arises that I have treated people unfriendly...the opposite is true. A friend to the friendless cause I understand people need people to show up! I am the friend to #pullup and #support 

I have had some VERY CANDID conversations as of lately. I ask my closest family and friends what it is about me that makes those in my life leave me to my own devices (I can't be controlled but everyone could use help/support) or maybe this is a better defintio: left out in the cold...the answer has been a unanimous: you are the strongest person I know. My besties son even wrote me and said he looks up to me because his Mom does and she is the strongest woman he knows. I am trudging through with all these injuries but Lord knows I could use a medic! Someone to just nurse my wounds - cause whew! But I am getting it done myself. But I have learned something, I am the friend in most of my relationships...the giver, the doer, the quicker picker upper...picked up so much these knees gave out under pressure - I had to lay it all down! Now I got Meagan Knees  :)

It's not that I don't have people who "care"...they just care from way over there. They all say I am here when you need me and I keep asking WHERE'S HERE!?  

If only we all understood the Five Languages of Love...it is goes along with a video I posted about 8 minutes for loved ones...but adding to taking out time for the ones you love (especially those suffering, who desperately want to end the suffering and could just use some #reallovenoshade #humancrutches #support as they go through the #feeldealheal process)...if we have conversations where we listen and understand what our loved one needs, we can provide that with ease! The issue is, we often want to do for them what we THINK they need...why make assumptions!? 

I am not here to point fingers because I have been guilty to, thinking I can prove my love, my worth by my WORK. Some do too much, others do too little - I gotta find balalnce and meet in the middle! I have taken a chill pill and unplugged so I can take the time to deal with ME! #adjustingmyowncrown #putmyselfintimeout